This story features characters owned by
Marvel Comics, and no money is being made from their unauthorized
use here. The character of Reine, however, is my creation,
and if you use her without my permission, regardless
of whether or not cash is involved, I'll just have to hunt
you down and kill you.
Well, dat was it.
After so much time in limbo, I was almos' lookin' forward
to anyt'ing that might happen next.
Y' know how once you make a tough decision, you usually feel
relieved -- no matter what y' chose or what could come o'
your choice -- because at least y' finally did somet'ing?
That's pretty much how I was feelin'.
Rogue was finally goin' t' get her wish. She was goin' to
get de truth of the shadows o' me that she carried around
inside o' her. The pain an' de shame dat were mine. All these
years, I been carryin' them around my neck like de Mariner
an' his albatross.a Saints knew, I never expected
or wanted the woman I love t' carry them too. Puttin' her
through dat was something else I was goin' t' have to make
* Jus' add it to the list, pup ... * I thought drily.
Tellin' her the truth was promisin' to be de hardest an'
most painful t'ing I'd ever have t' live through. I shuddered
as I changed my mind.
* Non ... de tunnels were worse. And it ain' like I deserve
any better ... *
Only problem now was how t' break it to her. I was jus' considering
my options when Stormy came down f' breakfast.
" Good morning, Remy ... I did not expect to see you
so early. Are you well, my friend? "
She was smilin', but I could feel de concern behind her light
words. She was teasin' me, but not so much as t' annoy me
if somet'ing really was wrong. Which there was, but I wasn'
about t' let her know that. Ain' many that c'n read this Cajun
de way Stormy can. I smiled at her.
" I'm fine, chère ... jus' thinkin' about some things
Her concern went up a notch -- guess I didn' manage t' get
my game face up quite in time. Den again, 'Ro's run 'nough
cons in her time to know the signs.
" You know if you require help in any way ... all you
need do is ask. "
She wasn' trying t' fish -- she knows how well dat
goes over wit' me -- she was tryin' t' reassure me. I could
sense her support an' her caring, as well as her worry. She
knew somet'ing was up with me, but she also knew I wouldn'
take any help I didn' ask for m'self. She jus' wanted t' remind
me that I could ask. I smiled again.
* Guess I'm kind o' stubborn that way ... *
" I know dat, chère. You're a good friend, Stormy."
She slapped my arm lightly, annoyed, as she went on her way
to de 'fridge.
" Do not call me that. "
* Time t' build on her distraction from my troubles, an'
mebbe have some fun doin' it ... *
" I better watch it -- y' gettin' all violent on me,"
I was rubbin' my arm, pretendin' that she really did hurt
me, but she wasn' falling for it.
" Your little melodrama does not fool me, my friend,"
she laughed softly.
I feigned indignance.
" You sayin' my actin' skills are sub-par, 'Ro? "
I asked in a hurt voice.
" Certainly not," her eyes gleamed mischievously,
like de child I first knew her as, before she continued.
" But then, I have always been fond of ham. "
I grasped at my chest, an' doubled over, playin' it up for
all I was worth.
" Y' wound me to de heart, chère -- to the heart ! "
I had come close t' my goal -- she was almos' giggling. See,
Stormy tries her best never t' giggle 'cause she thinks it
ain' dignified, an' I always tell her dat attitude ain' healthy.
I settled for her laugh instead, and grinned at her.
" Don't think I do not know what you just tried to do
... you know that I hate how I sound when I giggle,"
she said accusingly, still a little out o' breath from laughing.
I braced m'self.
* Get ready f' battle, pup *
" But y' sound so cute when you giggle, Stormy
If dere's one thing Ororo hates more than bein' called Stormy,
an' de sound of her own giggling ... it's bein' called cute.
Good t'ing I was ready. I managed t' catch the eggs she was
throwing at me wit'out breakin' them, but she kept findin'
" Truce! I know ham an' eggs go t'gether, chère, but
dis is ridiculous! "
Dat did it. The barrage stopped 'cause she was giggling so
hard she could barely breathe, let alone aim.
* Mission accomplished *
I grinned at her again. I made my next move 'fore she could
find more ammunition.
" T'ink y' needed a good laugh, 'Ro ... an' I appreciate
what y' said earlier. C'n I apologize f' dat unseemly incident
I just provoked by makin' y' breakfast? "
She looked at me, pretendin' not to be sure.
" Jus' perhaps? " I said mournfully, givin' her
my best lost-puppy-look.
" Strawberry crèpes? " she asked.
" For you, chère -- wit' vanilla sauce."
" Well, I suppose so," she conceded wit' a long-suffering
I had jus' turned back to the fridge to get the butter an'
milk when she zapped me wit' a lightning bolt dat was about
the strength of a strong static charge ...
In my butt.
I yelped an' turned t' face her , swearin' under my breath,
while massagin' de point of impact.
She was grinnin' fit t' split her face.
" Now we are even."
That was all she managed t' get out b'fore she started giggling
again, then laughing, an' I joined her.
It was good t' laugh like dat again, jus' me an' Stormy.
An' after all -- even I have to admit I deserved it.
One t'ing that ain' changed about Stormy in all de time I've
known her -- she's never been able t' resist my crèpes. I
kept her company while she ate, even managed t' get her to
laugh a couple more times. It's somet'ing she don' get a chance
t' do all that much anymore ...
It's 'cause she is one o' the leaders. She's always
tryin' t' be strong for ev'rybody else, keepin' a lid on her
feelings all the time, even her incredible sense o' fun. I
bet there ain' anybody else on de team who'd be associatin'
"fun" with Stormy, but I know her better than most.
She figures she can' let it show on account of mebbe compromisin'
her leadership image. She takes her responsibilities serious,
Sometimes, I t'ink I'm about the only outlet she has to dat
other side of her. She trusts me for it 'cause I first knew
her as a child -- a kid who could still laugh freely, no matter
how bad t'ings got. At least she still had that part
o' her -- that whole fight in de kitchen was a case in point.
I always tell her dat our inner maniacs feed off each other,
mine's jus' closer t' the surface. Managed to drag hers out
today, though. I jus' wish I could make it so she didn' have
t' hide that part of her personality so much.
Guess that's jus' part o' being a leader -- and why I ain'
keen on the job. Workin' alone is a lot less complicated,
because the only t'ing y' have to worry about is you. When
y' got people following you, you got the assurance dat any
screwup y' make is goin' t' hurt -- or kill -- a hell of a
lot more than jus' y'self.
Mebbe I've never been a leader, but I still know what dat
That's prob'ly why I don' want t' be a leader ...
got enough on my conscience as it stands.
Anyway, once 'Ro finished up eatin' and left, I had another
I went up t' my room t' think -- more private than de kitchen,
an' quieter than de roof at this time o' day.
I was goin' to tell Rogue everyt'ing before coming clean
wit' the others -- but what about Stormy?
I figured I owed Rogue -- merde, dat was obvious -- she's
been carryin' my own personal hell 'round with her since Israel.
But if not for Stormy, I wouldn' even be here, in dis mansion.
Wouldn' ever have met Rogue.
Wouldn' have been able t' make amends like I have, small
as they are, as I've been doin' in the years since.
An' the Morlocks were Stormy's people.
She deserved t' hear the whole story from me, just as much
as Rogue did. I could tell the others, sure -- but ma chère
and Stormy both deserved t' hear it first.
This was goin' t' be even harder than I thought.
* Still ain' enough for what I done, though *
Not like anyt'ing could be enough.
I made up my mind, an' went t' my desk for some notepaper
and a pen.
First, arrange the meeting, then tell them everything, no
holdin' back. Then hope I could live wit' whatever
would happen next, an' try not t' think about it 'fore it
actually does happen.
There was a certain symmetry to it all -- Stormy was de reason
I was here, Rogue was the reason I stayed, an' I loved both
o' them. I only hoped dis wouldn' hurt them so much that they
wouldn' trust anyone again.
My lips were set in a thin, humourless smile as I started
* Y' never were one t' do t'ings by halves, Remy -- an' if
y' goin' to alienate almos' everyone you care about, might
as well start wit' the love o' your life an' your best friend
What was it that Caesar said?
Alea jacta est ... the die is cast.b
Sums t'ings up pretty well.
Gives you an idea 'bout how a body's feelin' when y' start
quoting Latin before noon ...
I had done it -- gone up t' Stormy's and Rogue's rooms, and
left my notes, askin' them t' talk privately later tonight.
All I had to do now was wait for de appointed hour.
I had dat weird serenity come on me again. Even if de worst
did happen, my sister would still be there f' me. An' at least
I would have faced my demons once an' for all.
Part o' me still couldn' believe I was doin' this, an' no
wonder. Secrecy is second nature to a t'ief, an' I was goin'
t' be spillin' my guts dis evening -- o' my own free will.
* Incroyable1 *
Funny how life is like a chain reaction o' events -- de domino
effect in action. If I hadn' checked the roof o' de museum
that night ... if Reine hadn't decided t' track me down ...
if not for our power -- 'specially if not for our power --
I don' t'ink I'd be going through with this.
A few weeks ago, if anyone would've tol' me dat a long-lost
sister was goin' t' end up knowing all my secrets by joinin'
wit' my mind, and it wouldn' bother me at all, I would've
said they were cinglé -- once I stopped laughin' dat is.2
Whenever anybody's tried t' get in my head, even wit' my
permission, I've felt ... mebbe 'violated' is too strong,
but I can' come up wit' a better word.
Wakin' up after that first merge, havin' no secrets left
from her -- it didn' feel like that. An' that was de
weirdest t'ing about it. Mebbe it was 'cause she didn' have
any secrets from me anymore either ... so it wasn'
like she took somet'ing from me wit'out givin' back ... I
jus' don' know.
What it did feel like ... was like comin' home --
familiar ... comfortable ... safe. Like I was jus' findin'
a part o' me I didn't know existed before. Although we never
discussed it, I know Reine felt de same way.
* De headache afterward was a bitch, though *
She knew everyt'ing, an' to her, it didn' matter.
* Dieu merci *3
After dis evening was over, no matter what happened ... at
least I knew that dere would still be one person on this earth
that loved me.
Maybe dat was enough.
It jus' might have t' be.
Continued in Chapter
a. From Samuel Taylor Coleridge's "The Rime of the Ancient
Mariner" -- while on a voyage, the mariner of the title
killed an albatross, a bird of good luck. When things started
to go bad for the crew afterward, he was compelled to wear
the bird around his neck in penance for his crime.
b. In ancient Rome, the empire was at one time divided among
three men, including Julius Caesar. To keep the peace amongst
themselves, they had some strict territorial laws. One of
these was that no army was to cross the Rubicon River -- to
do so would mean civil war. The quotation Remy used is what
Caesar said once he had crossed that river with his legions
-- essentially, to make a fateful decision with full knowledge
of the consequences.
3. Thank God.
"All warfare is based on deception."
-- Sun-Tzu, The Art of War
Down-Home Charm / Fan-Fiction /
Fan Artwork / History Books /
Photo Album / Songbank /
Miscellania / Links /
Legalese: Rogue, the X-Men, and the distinctive likenesses thereof
are Trademarks of Marvel Characters, Inc. and are used without permission. This is an
unofficial fansite, and is not sponsored, licensed or approved by